More than just a pretty face, a pretty picture, or a funny video!
(Get Inside My Life!)
I created an official website so I could place all my thoughts and pictures and random idea's everywhere. and not have to worry about the criticism I get everywhere else! Here no one knows me, and I can really tell everyone how I feel. and the people who do know me, can get a taste of what I really am, without all the lies and rumors!
I guess I live in my own little world. you dont have to like me. you dont have to love me. you dont have to look at me. or talk to me. or befriend me. and even stand near me.
YOUTUBE. MYSPACE. LIVEJOURNAL. INTERNET BLOGGING SITES. STICKAM. BUZZNET. every where I go people already HATE me and they know NOTHING about me. NOTHING.
So this is MY PLACE.. where I can talk about what I want to talk about.. I am going to post all my BLOGS and THOUGHT and JOURNALS here...
You can read it, and really get to know me, and try to like me. Or you can continue to do your thing, either way I'm ABOVE IT! and I've moved on!
I DONT FOCUS MY LIFE AROUND THE HATE AND NEGATIVITY THAT OTHER PEOPLE SEEM TO DO.. I LIVE MY LIFE FOR ME... and for my friends and my family.
I will update this atleast 3 or 4 times weekly. with new pictures and video's and keep you all into whats really going on..
My upcoming TRAVEL dates, and where and when I will be doing what.
**HEART BROKEN** --- I'm SINGLE & ALONE, Depressed & Sad!
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LEAVE COMMENTS ONLY PLEASE! I NEED REALLY AWESOME ADVICE... I'm hurting guys.. REALLY BAD!
so you know last week I wrote a blog and bulletin about how in love I was in. and everything felt right and I didnt know how to deal with it and asked for advice..
WELL.. tonight he told me that we couldnt date.
he was going back to his PIECE OF SHIT EX-BOYFRIEND.
and it ripped my heart out of my chest and killed me.
I've never felt so connected with someone before.
Never fell in "LOVE" like that before.
NEVER HALF OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED.
he actually made me happy.
just hanging out, or laying out, I was happy.
and now.
ITS ALL GONE..
I've been crying all night.
I've eaten half the house. and I'm gorging myself to deal with the pain. It feels like I was STABBED in the heart. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME.. I never feel this way.
EVER.
and the one time I lift my guard. its gets murdered, shattered, and handed back to me.
I DONT HATE HIM.
I still want to be with him.
all my friends are telling me to be MAD.
and I cant.
I'M IN LOVE.. It hurts soo bad.
If he comes back to me, I will go right back like things were... I want them to be that way. I WANT TO BE WITH HIM... we make each other happy.
I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY, I dont want to talk about it anymore.. I've cried and cried and cried. I've ate and ate and ate. I've drank and drank and drank.
and now I'm mellowed out. I cant feel anything.
but I still FEEL everything.
I feel like CARRIE in the new SEX AND THE CITY movie after BIG left her at the library and she drank herself to death and went to MEXICO..
My MR.BIG ditched me.
and CARRIE has lost her mind.
I cant deal anymore.
I'm going to bed.
LEAVE ME SOUND ADVICE.
PLEASE!
- Brandon Hilton
LEAVE COMMENTS ONLY PLEASE! I NEED REALLY AWESOME ADVICE... I'm hurting guys.. REALLY BAD!
**HEART BROKEN** --- I'm SINGLE & ALONE, Depressed & Sad!
Body:
LEAVE COMMENTS ONLY PLEASE! I NEED REALLY AWESOME ADVICE... I'm hurting guys.. REALLY BAD!
so you know last week I wrote a blog and bulletin about how in love I was in. and everything felt right and I didnt know how to deal with it and asked for advice..
WELL.. tonight he told me that we couldnt date.
he was going back to his PIECE OF SHIT EX-BOYFRIEND.
and it ripped my heart out of my chest and killed me.
I've never felt so connected with someone before.
Never fell in "LOVE" like that before.
NEVER HALF OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED.
he actually made me happy.
just hanging out, or laying out, I was happy.
and now.
ITS ALL GONE..
I've been crying all night.
I've eaten half the house. and I'm gorging myself to deal with the pain. It feels like I was STABBED in the heart. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME.. I never feel this way.
EVER.
and the one time I lift my guard. its gets murdered, shattered, and handed back to me.
I DONT HATE HIM.
I still want to be with him.
all my friends are telling me to be MAD.
and I cant.
I'M IN LOVE.. It hurts soo bad.
If he comes back to me, I will go right back like things were... I want them to be that way. I WANT TO BE WITH HIM... we make each other happy.
I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY, I dont want to talk about it anymore.. I've cried and cried and cried. I've ate and ate and ate. I've drank and drank and drank.
and now I'm mellowed out. I cant feel anything.
but I still FEEL everything.
I feel like CARRIE in the new SEX AND THE CITY movie after BIG left her at the library and she drank herself to death and went to MEXICO..
My MR.BIG ditched me.
and CARRIE has lost her mind.
I cant deal anymore.
I'm going to bed.
LEAVE ME SOUND ADVICE.
PLEASE!
- Brandon Hilton
LEAVE COMMENTS ONLY PLEASE! I NEED REALLY AWESOME ADVICE... I'm hurting guys.. REALLY BAD!
My advice .... sleep until you get tired of sleeping and thinking of him and you get the hell up and move on with your life. I am truely sorry for this ... trust me ... i just found out the guy that told me he loves 4 days ago is getting married and damn do I want to mutilate that tramp and that bastard!! I know this is not what you want to hear but I will say it anywy ... if it was meant to be then it was meant to be ... you will meet someone better and you deserve a real man with dignity, pride and rspect. Keep your eyes and ears open but seal your heart ... yat look for a guy who carries himself like a King but does not act like one and when you do meet that guy make him work hard to get into your heart again. Rememeber don't fall in love to quickly and let go off that asshole he was just chippin away at your soul and not worthy of even having you!!!
hi brandon....i know what its like to feel this way....buit if someone does this to you once you souldnt give thenm the chance to do it a second time...there are more fish in the sea...the guy i loved left me for is x and i want to kill myself because we have ben together fpr almost 3 years and i didnt know what to do so i did what i wanted.... i went shoping and ate alot and gained alot of wieght all because of him....and that im sure gave him the pleasure knowing that he has won on the heart break....dont let him know that he has your heart in the pawlm of his hand...i promis you will get htrought this maby in a couple of weeks or months but you will make it through i promis.... good luck
i felt like that before my mr.big and i were madly in love.he just lefted an went with his ex i did the same thing now wat i did was that i waited a few daysfor a call then i started sending love stuff then i siad i will never stop loving him and bothering him then he stopped dating girls and went toguys now im a counsular for the gay.
I totally know what you are going through and regardless of what anyone says, It hurts all the same. I ate slept and thought about nothing but him (most annoying part of our breakup is that there was no need for it so i didnt have a reason to hate him). If there is one thing that i have learnt along the way, it's 'no matter how bad we feel, the pain always goes away in the end' and it makes you a stronger person (whatever doesnt kill us only makes us stronger)
Advice: Do what you feel is right for you (you are the one with the pain and you know what's best for number 1)
I found that i mostly wanted to be on my own and not have the distraction of my friends. I wanted the pain to flow through. that's pretty much as bad as it will get and after that, it hurts less everytime I think of him. Slowly but surely you'll get over him.
And I read above and totally agree, if it was meant to be it will be.... Fate If it doesn't, It's only life's way of making room for someone nicer...In the long run it will make sense
so don't worry, you are cute, young and got loads more expriences and emotions to go through.... smile if you can and enjoy it :o)
Hell if that fails....but the $100 shoelace :o))) see ....knew that will make you smile
I cant really say if you will get over this or if he will come back to you or if you will find someone else. BUT i can tell you that if that prick left you for a piece of shit ex-boyfriend then you must get over him and you must make urself availible for someone else. That way when he sees you again you'll be blasting with enough sexyness and awesomeness that hill want to come cralling back to you on all fours. And when he does you'll bitch slap him for being an idiot and decide if you want to take him back.
P.S. if it was my desistion id kick him to the kerb like bekom and find someone 3X as hot as him just to make him feel bad.
Hey, I have been reading some of your blogs, and I just wanted to let you know, when someone rips your heart out, as much as people will tell you to be angry, tell you to this and that which normally revolve around never talking to him again, I say don't listen to them, they are saying it to try and console you, but if you feel as strongly as you say you do than I say as much as it hurts to be happy for him if things work out, also, good things that help are being around friends that won't keep bringing the subject up unless you want to, screaming at the top of your lungs if you are getting clusterfucked from too much thinking of it and also writing your thoughts out so that you can make sense of it all properly, friends will also say to date, obviously you can't if you are still having very strong feelings for him as anyone you date until you can "get over him" enough to be able to see other people will be a rebound, and those rarely work... now for distractions that normally help.... go driving, don't make a destination, just go driving... movies do help, but romantic ones normally don't... avoid watching the vid on youtube you have with him as it will bring a rush of emotions back.... another thing that does help is to gradually start seeing him again while keeping in mind that there are now limitations as to what you can do (up to discretion of the boyfriend)... and most of all, try and have a positive outlook no matter how dark it seems as if you don't you drag further and further down the hole.....
Hopefully you give some way that shows you are doing better...
hey i might not give the best advise but my advise 2 u is that if u still love him with all ur heart just wait & be happy with ur friends cuz they need u 2
just be happy with ur friends & wait 4 ur true love 2 come 2 u
omg im SOO sorry...i totally getwhere ur coming from and all with the whole i just want u back think and all...but sweetie srsly its not gonna happen the way u think (i went through it and it suckd...i can relate believe it or not)
i mean like even if he came back things cant be the same aftr sumthing like tht (it just doesnt go away tht easily but then again i dnt hav details so i cant really say nething)...but yeah i mean ur definately a cute guy and i mean theres lotz of people out their (esp for an internet celeb :) so see wht life has to offer...i know it isnt ez (esp when ur inluv...tht hurts) but ull live through it im sure...good luck!
The best advice i have ever given as a 21 year old was when i drank lots of wine and came up with my new motto: "Expect the best, prepare yourself for the worst." That is the way I look into every decision that comes up because i really hate being let down. so i prepare for the worst but staying confident that the situation will work out for the best. ;p ~Benjamin
Yezzir! U cud go right back to him n forget it ever happened. But ya know deep down it did happen. N it wont go away. He hurt u. N u could go right back to him n hope he don't do it again. If he wanted ya before. He wud not have left you 4 his dumb ex bf. Face it. Thats reality. Be needy and fill a void by going back 2 him. But thats another asshole who has won in life by screwing others over to get what he wonts. Not to mention breaking hearts. Be above the influence. You be the man. He dont sound liek he iz worth Brandon Hiltons time of any day.
I say what you do is grab yourself up out that couch, floor, or whatever it is you are in to cried and grieve over it, and just attack the world doing everything you've ever wanted to do. You've already cried all your hurt out, now you gotta condition yourself to cope with the lost and eventually move on from it. What you gotta do is drink a little bit... look outside and just do something...
Go out to a movie, travel to somewhere that you get afford to get to and see things you've never seen before, enjoy time with yourself.... shit .. even get to know yourself... meet new and different people.. you'll be surprised how interesting everyone else is. Do somethin stupid like spend $100 bucks on a pack of shoelaces, and be proud of it.
And you know why I say do all that and more, because you'd get back to what is most important to you.. yourself. So cheer up. We all get hurt once in a while and it's up to us to be able to handle these times with ease and control. So go on man. Hit the world and show em what your made of. ...... .... ..... ....
I really hope that helped... cuz i got a lil lost near the end.. lol..
im sorry! i agree with this person above me completely. it waz wrong of him 2 hurt u like that but u shud just try 2 get ovr it and just keep on going strong . if it is meant 2 be it will happen. ur a great person and dont let him bring u down. good luck with evrything. =]
Omg, that's just so sad. =[ when i was reading through i felt the pain. speechless. you really love him. i can see that. just try to move on dearest. if you guys are meant to be together, it'll just happen. =]
[mkay, i think my advice was dumb =]] lol. but i hope it helped in someway =P] lovelove brandon,
